Aimless
Today was a holiday for some. I on the other hand had to get up early and go to work. It was not easy. I could have easily stayed in bed. I don't know that I would have stayed there sleeping, but I could have stayed in bed. Have you every had days like that? Weeks? Sometimes I feel like I go through those periods. I feel like I have no purpose. I feel like I am not moving forward. I begin to wonder what I am doing. I have the draw string of my bow pulled back, but I really don't know what I am aiming at. I feel aimless.
Can you relate? Sometimes I can drift like that for what seems like days and weeks, tense ready to release the string, but not sure what I will hit. It is exhausting.
Then there are times that I have so many targets in front of me that I am not sure which one I should aim at first. I begin to wonder if I am not prioritizing my life properly, what happens if I shoot at the wrong target first and then miss the opportunity to hit one of greater value?
You know what, I still find myself with the string drawn, tense, and not sure which one I will hit. It is exhausting.
I really dislike feeling this way. I feel idle. I begin to lose hope. I begin to think that it would be easier to close my eyes and make it all go away. You know what, it doesn't. And after a while, I can't lay there with my eyes closed all the time. It is even more exhausting to lay there.
It is times like these that I realize I have to do something. I have to get up. I have to put one foot in front of the other. As Bob would teach, "Baby Steps". Pretty soon, I find myself taking longer strides as I build up strength and energy. The Lord tells us that it is "line upon line, precept upon precept..." What is important is that we are moving towards a target. It may not matter which one, but we are moving.
This morning I found myself needing to move. I started with a conversation to the Lord. I truly sat down and talked to him. You know what, he answered me. I did not try to tell him what I thought I should do, but I told him where I was, what I was concerned about, and asked what he thought I should do. Then I listened. Then I did not reject the response, but received it. I set new goals and took new aim.
I still have lots of targets. There are moments that I still feel aimless, but I am not letting it stop me. I go back to the Lord and ask him to help me adjust my sites. He is there, waiting, willing, and full of wisdom. It is just up to me to follow through.
I bet it will work for you, even on the silliest of things. To the Lord, they are not silly.
Can you relate? Sometimes I can drift like that for what seems like days and weeks, tense ready to release the string, but not sure what I will hit. It is exhausting.
Then there are times that I have so many targets in front of me that I am not sure which one I should aim at first. I begin to wonder if I am not prioritizing my life properly, what happens if I shoot at the wrong target first and then miss the opportunity to hit one of greater value?
You know what, I still find myself with the string drawn, tense, and not sure which one I will hit. It is exhausting.
I really dislike feeling this way. I feel idle. I begin to lose hope. I begin to think that it would be easier to close my eyes and make it all go away. You know what, it doesn't. And after a while, I can't lay there with my eyes closed all the time. It is even more exhausting to lay there.
It is times like these that I realize I have to do something. I have to get up. I have to put one foot in front of the other. As Bob would teach, "Baby Steps". Pretty soon, I find myself taking longer strides as I build up strength and energy. The Lord tells us that it is "line upon line, precept upon precept..." What is important is that we are moving towards a target. It may not matter which one, but we are moving.
This morning I found myself needing to move. I started with a conversation to the Lord. I truly sat down and talked to him. You know what, he answered me. I did not try to tell him what I thought I should do, but I told him where I was, what I was concerned about, and asked what he thought I should do. Then I listened. Then I did not reject the response, but received it. I set new goals and took new aim.
I still have lots of targets. There are moments that I still feel aimless, but I am not letting it stop me. I go back to the Lord and ask him to help me adjust my sites. He is there, waiting, willing, and full of wisdom. It is just up to me to follow through.
I bet it will work for you, even on the silliest of things. To the Lord, they are not silly.
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