Sometimes
I am sitting here tonight just pondering the events that are occurring around me. I am tired. The noise is getting to me. I find myself wanting to just go behind closed doors and bask in the quiet.
I am there now, trying hard to close it all out. As I wrote the last few lines, I was there. The cool breeze from outside comes in through my windows. I can hear the slight chirping of spring time birds. Then the car alarm goes off on the street behind us and it is all ruined. Sometimes, I just want to get away.
While I sit here trying to gather my thoughts, I took the time to reflect on where I was last year at this time. What was I doing and how was it going? I looked back at my blog and found that I was not doing much. But, when I go to April, there seemed to be much on my mind. I like these moments of pondering. It gives me an opportunity to see if I am moving forward or not. Sometimes, I wonder if I am.
I was moved last night while working in the temple. A young man came through as he was preparing to serve his mission. I was able to participate in some of the ordinances he received for himself. It was amazing. The spirit was so strong. I wondered if he was really understanding the significance of what he was receiving. The blessings that were pronounce upon his head are so powerful. Sometimes I just love basking in the power of those moments and thank my Savior for the opportunity to be there.
Do you ever have those days where you just feel like it is all too much. You wonder if you are doing enough. You are bombarded with thoughts of inadequacies and shortcomings. You just don't understand why or how you have been able to make is so far. Sometimes I have those days.
It is when I have those days that I like to find a quiet place. I get away from the noise. I get on my knees and talk to my Savior. I ponder the communication he shares with me in return. I reflect upon the blessings he has promised me if I am faithful and diligent in my efforts. I am reminded of my nothingness. I hold fast to his greatness. I know that he knows me, my feelings, my concerns. He has experiences them. Sometimes we focus on just the short time he was in the garden or on the cross, but his life was more than that. I am sure, that like me, he had those moments of concern. He then got on his knees and turned to the Father. Where he felt he was falling short, Our Father lifted him up. In turn, where am falling short, he lifts me if I will but turn to him. He knows us. We must learn to know him. He recognizes us in all facets of our lives. We must turn to him and make him a part of those facets.
Sometimes, I just bask in the power of knowing that he is there for me. I look for strength to be there for him. He is there, turn to him. Listen to him. He is waiting.
I am there now, trying hard to close it all out. As I wrote the last few lines, I was there. The cool breeze from outside comes in through my windows. I can hear the slight chirping of spring time birds. Then the car alarm goes off on the street behind us and it is all ruined. Sometimes, I just want to get away.
While I sit here trying to gather my thoughts, I took the time to reflect on where I was last year at this time. What was I doing and how was it going? I looked back at my blog and found that I was not doing much. But, when I go to April, there seemed to be much on my mind. I like these moments of pondering. It gives me an opportunity to see if I am moving forward or not. Sometimes, I wonder if I am.
I was moved last night while working in the temple. A young man came through as he was preparing to serve his mission. I was able to participate in some of the ordinances he received for himself. It was amazing. The spirit was so strong. I wondered if he was really understanding the significance of what he was receiving. The blessings that were pronounce upon his head are so powerful. Sometimes I just love basking in the power of those moments and thank my Savior for the opportunity to be there.
Do you ever have those days where you just feel like it is all too much. You wonder if you are doing enough. You are bombarded with thoughts of inadequacies and shortcomings. You just don't understand why or how you have been able to make is so far. Sometimes I have those days.
It is when I have those days that I like to find a quiet place. I get away from the noise. I get on my knees and talk to my Savior. I ponder the communication he shares with me in return. I reflect upon the blessings he has promised me if I am faithful and diligent in my efforts. I am reminded of my nothingness. I hold fast to his greatness. I know that he knows me, my feelings, my concerns. He has experiences them. Sometimes we focus on just the short time he was in the garden or on the cross, but his life was more than that. I am sure, that like me, he had those moments of concern. He then got on his knees and turned to the Father. Where he felt he was falling short, Our Father lifted him up. In turn, where am falling short, he lifts me if I will but turn to him. He knows us. We must learn to know him. He recognizes us in all facets of our lives. We must turn to him and make him a part of those facets.
Sometimes, I just bask in the power of knowing that he is there for me. I look for strength to be there for him. He is there, turn to him. Listen to him. He is waiting.
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