Floating
I know that I was lazy yesterday. I felt like I was just floating from one task to the next. I knew what I had to do, I did it. I felt like there is something more I should be doing, but I did not know what it was. I have been feeling that way for the past few days.
So what do I do to get out of it? What do any of us do when we are in that floating state? How do we find purpose again? Sometimes, I just don't know. I wish I did. I know that it won't be long and I will find something. I will direct all of my attention to it and feel useful again. I just don't like feeling this way.
The other day at work, I was talking to my supervisor about vacations. He asked how many weeks I had left this year. I told him that I had three weeks and a day, but I did not know when I was going to take them. I knew that I wanted to take a week at Christmas, but did not have plans for the other two. He suggested that I just stay home. I told him that unless I had a project to work on while at home, I could not do that. It would drive me crazy. He looked at me like I was nuts. He suggested sleeping in, watching TV, catching up on movies I had not seen, or just listening to music.
The more I thought about it, the more crazy it made me. I could not just sit there. I may be able to do it for a day or so, but then I would go stir crazy. I would feel idle. I would feel like I was wasting precious time. Wasting time that I could be doing something productive.
Then I started thinking about all the time I waste. How much time do we waste sitting in front of the TV instead of doing something productive with my family? Should we waste that time? How would I feel if I lost them and knew that I could have been doing more, saying more, or showing them more? I am so grateful for the sealing power. Because I know that if I do lose them for a short moment, I will have them back. I will be able to do those things, say those things, and show them what we didn't do, yet I cannot afford to be idle while I have them either. None of us can.
So what do I do to get out of it? What do any of us do when we are in that floating state? How do we find purpose again? Sometimes, I just don't know. I wish I did. I know that it won't be long and I will find something. I will direct all of my attention to it and feel useful again. I just don't like feeling this way.
The other day at work, I was talking to my supervisor about vacations. He asked how many weeks I had left this year. I told him that I had three weeks and a day, but I did not know when I was going to take them. I knew that I wanted to take a week at Christmas, but did not have plans for the other two. He suggested that I just stay home. I told him that unless I had a project to work on while at home, I could not do that. It would drive me crazy. He looked at me like I was nuts. He suggested sleeping in, watching TV, catching up on movies I had not seen, or just listening to music.
The more I thought about it, the more crazy it made me. I could not just sit there. I may be able to do it for a day or so, but then I would go stir crazy. I would feel idle. I would feel like I was wasting precious time. Wasting time that I could be doing something productive.
Then I started thinking about all the time I waste. How much time do we waste sitting in front of the TV instead of doing something productive with my family? Should we waste that time? How would I feel if I lost them and knew that I could have been doing more, saying more, or showing them more? I am so grateful for the sealing power. Because I know that if I do lose them for a short moment, I will have them back. I will be able to do those things, say those things, and show them what we didn't do, yet I cannot afford to be idle while I have them either. None of us can.
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